Thursday, May 29, 2008
why I do what I do
Today, we had a huge assembly to say goodbye to our principal. She is retiring, after almost 35 years of teaching/being principal and after 10 years at our school. She actually will be going to southern Utah to be principal of a high school on the Navajo Indian Reservation... a high school with less than 50 students. Anyway, the assembly included singing and dancing by the kids as well as two slide shows. It brought tears to my eyes several times. It was a beautiful program. And not that I think teaching is all about singing and having programs, I am grateful that my school has kids learn songs and every class participates in dance classes taught by Tanner Dance Company. We have an art teacher that does an amazing job and we have student work displayed throughout the school. And even though our test scores don't always show it, we've done some amazing things. I have several students who made 1 1/2 years growth in reading during the 9 months of school. Almost every child made at least 9 months to a year's growth in reading. Their writing has improved. Their understanding of math is so much greater than it was at the beginning of the year. We've taught them about North and South America, including the Utes and Incas, as well as habitats, geography and so on. And I hope that I've helped some kids who didn't like to read that reading is exciting. One of my fears about No Child Left Behind is that it puts so much pressure on schools like mine to achieve in reading and math that many feel that they don't have time for "extras" (I must admit I often feel this way.) like music, dance, art, PE. And yet, I think they are especially necessary at schools like mine, because for many of these kids that is the only place they will have exposure to these things. My students aren't usually being taken to piano lessons or dance classes. They learn these skills and have these experiences at school or, for some, at the Sorensen Center which offers sports teams and some other experiences for a very low fee. Or else they don't have them at all.
From what I understand, the school where Michelle will attend, teaches keyboarding (as in piano) from either Kdg or 1st grade up. I think that's great. Since we don't have a piano in our home, I'm glad she will get at least some exposure and maybe eventually we can start her on piano lessons.
I get frustrated with plenty of things about my school, my district, and especially the No Child Left Behind legislation. And there are plenty of obnoxious kids that I get sick of dealing with. But sometimes, I feel pretty proud to work where I do. I think Salt Lake District is the best. We offer so many special programs so that kids/families can find a fit. There is the dual immersion program, bilingual programs, full time gifted programs, a science academy (junior high level), an open classroom (less structured than most classrooms, lots of kid exploration, parents are required to be involved), and probably others that I can't think of at the moment. I'm glad this school year is almost over, but I am also glad that I am a teacher. Every year you get to start fresh and no two years are exactly the same. It keeps you constantly on your toes. It's not a job where you can ever rest (if you want to be effective, at least) or expect that what worked today will work the same tomorrow. And that's the fun of it; and part of what makes it so hard. But it is who I am. I am a teacher.
I can still eat sugar!
And, I'm back to feeling good. I think I must have had a virus over the weekend, because I was so nauseated and had diarrhea (sorry, probably too much info) and felt lousy. I thought maybe it was the iron, but I went 3 days without taking it and still felt lousy. And then yesterday, I suddenly felt better. (Although poor Michelle seems to have a mild case of whatever I had and she felt terrible on Wednesday. Poor kiddo. She took a nap and then just laid on the couch or in my bed from about 5 PM on, until she fell asleep for the night. She seemed to feel a lot better today).
curlicue
treehouse museum pics
Monday, May 26, 2008
treehouse museum
story time
"Once upon a time there were bad witches and good witches. There were bad kids and good kids. The bad kids and good kids went to the bad witches house and got bad candy. Then the good witches gave them good candy and helped the good kids get away from the bad kids. Dee end." (side note: Michelle keeps trying to tell Ella that it is "the end" or "Thee end" but she always says, "Dee End")
Michelle on the other hand changes her story regularly and can make up a story with whatever character you want her to have. Tonight she told a story about a fish that was lost and couldn't find it's mother. It needed help. I honestly don't remember the rest of the story, but it was pretty detailed with a beginning, middle and end, characters, problem and solution. :)
Tagged... again
1. I am scared of spiders and heights.
2. I get motion sickness. I remember as a kid that my sisters and I all got carsick. My parents would always say we would grow out of it. Both of my sisters did, but I'm still waiting for that to happen! So I don't love long drives or flights or riding roller coasters. (I like to travel to new places and see new things, but I don't enjoy the process of getting there.)
3. I have wanted to be a teacher since I was in first grade. As a young kid, I also wanted to be a ballerina and an astronaut. Then in junior high, I thought seriously about becoming a counselor. But pretty much from 1st grade on, I knew I would be a teacher some day. My mom taught high school math for a few years and hated it, so my family wasn't sure I really should be a teacher. But it is what I was meant to do.
4. Going along with number three, I am pretty passionate about education. I have strong opinions and up until a couple of years ago, I regularly read books about literacy and education for fun. (the last 2 years, I haven't as much. Is it because I'm busier or burned out? I'm not sure.) I know that sometimes I get a little preachy on this subject, so forgive me when I get going. (I probably get a little preachy on other subjects too, but this one is one that I KNOW gets me going.)
5. I was prom queen in high school. That embarrasses me to admit for some reason. Prom queen was different at my high school. It was selected by the teachers and administration (unlike homecoming queen and other events which were voted on by students). I would say that during high school I was well-liked but not popular. I would never have been prom queen if selected by my peers. (Although I think both of my sisters were homecoming queens?)
6. I've always thought I was kind of a chicken. I am totally not into dangerous things and get nervous about trying new things. Yet somehow having Mirielle at home has changed my perception of myself. It's made me view myself as a stronger, braver person. Sometimes I'll think, "If I can have a baby without any medication, then I can do _________." For example, a year ago, I had to have 2 wisdom teeth pulled. They asked if I needed laughing gas or anything and I said no. I figured if I could go through labor, then I could have 2 wisdom teeth pulled. So they just numbed the area and pulled the teeth. Not that big of a deal. My perception of my ability to deal with pain and difficulty has increased. But I'm still not a thrill seeker. I won't be doing any skydiving or bungee cord jumping (besides, I'm still afraid of heights!)
7. One trip I've wanted to take for years is a safari in Africa. But alas, Alfredo says no way will he ever go. He has no desire to go to Africa at all. So it's somewhere I'll probably never make it to. (Not that we do a whole lot of traveling to begin with. Both of us like to travel and did when we were single, but we do a lot less now.)
Well, I made it. There are 7 more things about me. I think everyone has been tagged except maybe Rachel. Carin, if you want to do it again, go for it. If there is anyone else who hasn't been tagged, then it's your turn.
Saturday, May 24, 2008
Busy Friday
Interestingly, while I was sitting there, one of the assistants from my school came out from a doctor's appointment. She is due two days after me and she has the same doctor I have. So now I know two people who are due within two weeks of me and have the same doctor, Dr. Froerer at Cottonwood OB/Gyn (located at the new Intermountain Medical Center). Funny that all 3 of us would have the same doctor and be due at almost the same time, especially when I think they are the only two friends I have that are pregnant right now.
After I got home, Alfredo, the girls and I went to Ikea. We are moving the girls into a bedroom downstairs since our home only has 2 bedrooms upstairs. I still think they are a little young to be downstairs, but they are excited about it. We told them they could buy new comforters for their beds (the ones they have now were given to us; they are fine, but getting new comforters and painting their bedroom have made them really excited about the move). So we bought the comforters and sheets and little canopies to hang over their beds. I'd only been to Ikea once before, several years ago in CA, and I have to admit that I only thought it was so-so. But going yesterday, they have a lot of cool things.
Then last night, a whole big group of us from our neighborhood went out to dinner at Applebees and then went to see Indiana Jones. There were 15 of us at dinner and then a couple more joined us for the movie. It was a lot of fun. I hope we do it again sometime soon. Alfredo and I had a great time. He talked to people that he really doesn't know that well and I think everyone had a good time. Thanks for organizing it, Aly and Carin. Let's do it again soon. (BTW, we missed you Nene and Shannon... next time you have to join us.)
Today, I've been feeling pretty nauseated. It's probably just a side effect from the iron I'm taking. But I felt pretty lousy. I'm glad it's the weekend and that I didn't have to work today.
Ella's addiction
Well, I had some bubble tape that I will dispense small pieces of to the girls. Yesterday she found it and I walked in the living room and saw her chewing the hugest piece of gum ever. It was probably the equivalent of 2 or 3 pieces of bubble gum.
preschool graduation
Michelle's graduation was a nice program where the kids sang several songs and in between each song, 3 parents stood up and talked briefly about what their child had learned. Then Brandi had created a video that we watched and she gave each of us a copy. (Check out the video at the Write Start Preschool blog, if you're interested. It's so cute.)
Sunday, May 18, 2008
random stuff
28 weeks
Note: I'd originally typed that I was at 32 weeks. Janene asked if that was right, and of course it wasn't. That's what happens when a. your kids are talking to you as you type, b. you have pregnancy brain, and c. you are anemic. I talked to my nurse today and she said I was very anemic. She asked if I'd been feeling tired. I said yes, but just figured it was due to working full time, having two kids and being pregnant. She laughed and said that taking iron should help me feel a little more energetic. I sure hope so.
I'm glad to know that memory lapses are an actual medical event during pregnancy, because I sure seem to be having a lot of them. Minutes before I typed this blog, I was thinking that to keep up with my rate of posting a picture every 4 weeks, I'll need to do one at 32 weeks, 36 weeks and 40 weeks. I knew I was 28 weeks along. Last week for Michelle's celebration of her birthday at preschool, I bought a box of 10 cookies and there are 11 kids in her class. So Michelle graciously gave up her birthday cookie and then Bryce was sweet enough to share his with Michelle, Ella and Sylas. (I really thought the box had 12, but apparently my brain isn't functioning... or else I can't count.) Several times I've been telling a story and a person's name will completely leave my head... people I know well! I don't remember being quite this forgetful or scatterbrained the first two times. Oh well. I'll (hopefully) return to my normal brain function in a couple of months. Thanks for pointing out my error, Janene!! (I'm sure I wouldn't have noticed on my own.)
warm weather
Ella's sling
Michelle's birthday
Michelle also got a new outfit from Alfredo. I tried to get her to model it for me, but she was just being goofy and so there are just silly shots.
Tuesday, May 13, 2008
my poor ella
Well, today after I picked her up from Janene's, Alfredo noticed that the area by her shoulder was swollen. He decided we better take her to insta-care. Which we did. They looked at it and took an x-ray. She broke her clavicle. I'm not sure how, although she'd rolled off her bed early Monday morning and that's probably how it happened. But the doctor said that in young kids, the clavicle can break with just about any fall. She's a tough little cookie. When we got to insta-care, she asked if the doctor was going to cut her open. (perform a surgery like her open heart surgery). She cried a tiny bit when she got the xray but that was it. So poor Ella is supposed to wear a sling (with Snoopy and the Peanut gang on it) for 2-3 weeks. Poor thing fell asleep in the car on the way home. I feel so bad. I should have taken her to instacare yesterday. Poor sweet girl.
Sunday, May 11, 2008
silly me... an interesting mother's day
I woke up a little bit late. I was trying to cook breakfast and get things ready at the same time and burnt breakfast (my kids are too young to cook... and Alfredo had to work). I opened the front room window to let the smell air out. (charcoaled bacon does NOT smell or taste good).
We ate, got ready and were on our way to church. I rushed out the door and just grabbed keys as I was running out the door. When I got home from church, I realized that I managed to grab just a set of car keys with no house key. So we were locked out. Well, I thought, we'll go visit Alfredo at work and get the house key from him. So we did. He bought us lunch (it's Sunday, I know, but we were all starving by 1:15 and it is Mother's Day so I made an exception). Then we drove back home. About a mile from our house, Michelle said she didn't feel good. She said she was going to throw up. I said we were almost home. She said she really felt sick. I handed her a tupperware container that had held cereal but was now empty. She immediately vomited 3 times into the container (which I promptly threw away once we got home).
So we were home. But the key Alfredo had given me was actually a spare key to my aunt's house and not the key to our house. So we were still locked out. Well, no big deal. I had left the window open (to air out the burned bacon) so I just had to get the screen off and climb through the window and unlock the door. So I grabbed the ladder. But while the window is not very high up, the ground underneath it is uneven. And so the ladder was not very steady. And I'm 6 months pregnant. And I'm naturally clutzy. Just as I was thinking that climbing the ladder was probably not such a great idea for me, Janene and Chris drove by. I flagged them down, Chris climbed the ladder, removed the screen and unlocked the door. (thanks chris!!) I took my children inside, cleaned Michelle up and we all laid down to watch a movie. Fortunately, Michelle hasn't thrown up since and seems to be feeling fine. I've decided to take tomorrow off anyway, just in case she is up during the night or is sick tomorrow.
What an exciting day we had! I hate when I do dumb things like lock myself out. Alfredo was very sweet, not saying anything about how silly it was that with all the sets of keys we have I took the one that had no house key. And he took care of dinner tonight. He also watched the girls last night so I could go see a movie. very sweet. it really was a pretty good day, just a little more eventful than I had planned.
Friday, May 9, 2008
i'm reading
This last pic has nothing to do with the post, but I thought it was cute and funny and it was also taken last night. Michelle is one cool dude.
wrestling match
bike rider
She had the hugest grin on her face in this photo. She is proud of herself. I was proud of her too. When I told Alfredo, he said she'd been riding like that for at least a week. He didn't seem to think it was that surprising or that big of a deal. I, however, was very impressed.
Wednesday, May 7, 2008
pregnant preschoolers
teeter totter
Monday, May 5, 2008
monday meditations
This week is teacher appreciation week and my principal gave us each a gift and read us a poem and had us watch a short film. She asked us to remember why we are teachers and to remind us to love the kids and to do what we need to so we can love our jobs and students. I must admit that the past two years, this has been difficult for me to do. Some of it is the pressure of testing and No Child Left Behind, some of it is burnout, some of it is the population I work with, some of it is just that I'm so busy. My first several years of teaching, I was so passionate about my job and my "kids" (students). I loved them so much. Even the difficult, less loveable ones. It seemed, in some ways, like a gift. Now I feel like a lot of the time I just tolerate my students. I feel like the opposite of the grinch... my heart has shrunk two sizes lately. When I stop to think about it, it makes me sad and I often recommit myself to doing better... being more understanding, patient, loving, etc. But it seems like there are some kids that it just doesn't work with anymore. I have two boys this year that I really can barely stand. That makes me feel sad and bad. If those children were my sons, I would want their teacher to see the good in them and to love them. And I realize that usually the most difficult children are the ones that most need someone to love them. They often come from difficult homes and backgrounds. Why am I not better able to do that? I want to but sometimes don't feel like I have it in me.
This is the poem our principal shared. It was put with images of children on a video which she also had us watch.
A Prayer for Children by Marian Wright Edelman
We pray for children
Who sneak popsicles before supper,
Who erase holes in math workbooks,
Who can never find their shoes.
And we pray for those
Who stare at photographers from behind barbed wire,
Who can't bound down the street in a new pair of sneakers,
Who never "counted potatoes"
Who are born in places we wouldn't be caught dead,
Who never go to the circus,
Who live in an X-rated world.
We pray for children
Who bring us sticky kisses and fistfuls of dandelions,
Who hug us in a hurry and forget their lunch money.
And we pray for those who never get dessert,
Who have no safe blanket to drag behind them,
Who watch their parents watch them die,
Who can't find any bread to steal,
Who don't have any rooms to clean up,
Whose pictures aren't on anybody's dresser,
Whose monsters are real.
We pray for children
Who spend all their allowance before Tuesday,
Who throw tantrums in the grocery store and pick at their food,
Who like ghost stories,
Who shove dirty clothers under the bed and never rinse out the tub,
Who get visits from the tooth fairy,
Who don't like to be kissed in front of the carpool,
Who squirm in church or temple and scream in the phone,
Whose tears we sometimes laugh at and whose smiles can make us cry.
And we pray for those
Whose nightmares come in the daytime,
Who will eat anything,
Who have never seen a dentist,
Who aren't spoiled by anybody,
Who go to bed hungry and cry themselves to sleep,
Who live and move, but have no being.
We pray for children who want to be carried and for those who must,
For those who never give up and for those who don't get a second chance.
For those we smother.... and for those who will grab the hand of anybody kind enough to offer it.
When I stop to think of the lives that far too many children live, it is amazing how resilient they are. I want to be the one kind enough to offer my hand, but I so often fall short. And I am often judgmental of their parents/families. Why aren't they kinder and doing more? Yesterday, in Sunday School, we studied Mosiah 3-5. I was reminded as we read of feeding the homeless and teaching our children to love and serve others of a book I read a year or two ago called Nobody Don't Love Nobody. The author taught at the homeless school in Salt Lake. One thing she said really struck me. She said that she came to see that most of the parents she saw really did love their kids. Many of them were trying to provide a better life for their child than they had as a kid, but that we all begin at different starting places. This really caused me to reflect. I still get angry that parents aren't better parents for their kids. But I guess that most are trying to do the best they can.
Just like I am. I often feel like I fall short of the type of parent I should be and want to be. I struggle sometimes with having to work. I don't get to spend as much time with my girls as I feel like I should. Even when I'm home, I often struggle with finding balance. I have so much to do (dinner to cook, dishes to wash, house to clean, schoolwork to do, working with the young women at church, etc.) that I struggle to not let those things take the place of spending time with my kids. I hate when my kids are mildly sick because I feel like I can't take time off work, but I feel guilty not staying home with them. Or when they have events (like preschool field trips, etc.) that I often can't attend. I hate that I regularly feel torn regardless of what decision I make... like no matter whether I take the day off or go to work, I've let someone down. And I hate that I feel torn at all, that I don't just automatically take the day off, that I have to really weigh the costs. I am so grateful for Janene because I know my girls are happy there and that she takes great care of them. That eases my conscience a lot. And overall, I think I'm doing okay. My girls are sweet and smart and they know we love them. I try to find the time and energy to do fun things with them, and I think I'm relatively successful at that. Mostly, I feel like I could be doing more to teach them the gospel. Over the past 2 years, I have had periods (weeks or months) where I did a good job of reading the scriptures to them and teaching them about the church. And other periods where we don't do very well. I am grateful for primary, because Michelle learns so much there. but I know I should be doing more myself. One of my goals for this summer is to get at least 30 FHE lesson/activities put together and ready to go so I can be better at doing that. Anyway, I need to stop this pity party. I have so many blessings. I have great friends and family and a great husband who really, in many ways, make up for the areas where I lack. Most of the time I like my job and it is something that I know is important. I have known for years that teaching is what I'm supposed to do. And if I have to work, I am glad that I have a job that gives me lots of time off with my kids and that is something that I believe in and feel is worthwhile.
Sorry that this turned into a full length novel. :) I think I"ll go down a little prenatal yoga to finish de-stressing and then go to bed.
Sunday, May 4, 2008
2 more recipes
(this is probably my girls' favorite food. they'd eat waffles every day for breakfast if i'd make them.)
1/2 cup white flour
1/2 cup wheat flour (or you can make them with 1 cup wheat flour and not use white at all)
1/2 Tbsp. baking powder
1 Tbsp. wheat germ
1-2 Tbsp. milled flax seed (flax seed has lots of omega 3's and is really good for you... you really can't tell that it is added to the waffles)
1 egg
1/4 cup applesauce (in place of the oil... makes it healthier, again you won't be able to tell)
1 cup skim or 1% milk
Mix ingredients together in a bowl. For especially light waffles, separate the egg and beat the egg white until almost stiff and then add to the other ingredients after mixing them. Pour in a waffle iron until done. Makes enough for 2-3 adults (it's enough for my whole family). Can be doubled.
To make it less sugary, you can use toppings other than butter and syrup. Try peanut butter, jam/jelly, nutella, applesauce, or fresh fruit. (Ella and I like applesauce with just a touch of syrup. Michelle likes it with lots of sugary syrup.)
Guiltless Nachos Supreme (From Lickety Split Meals by Zonya Foco... this is a cookbook filled with healthy recipes written by a registered dietitian. We like some of them.)
1 Tbsp. water
1/4 cup onion (or 2 green onions), chopped
1/2 cup green pepper, chopped
1 cup pinto or black beans (drained, rinsed) She recommends Eden brand which are low in sodium.
1 tsp. chili powder.
Chop veggies and then heat these ingredients in a nonstick pan about 3 minutes, stirring frequently.
Spread about 30 tortilla chips (Tostitos baked chips are pretty healthy.) Layer veggie saute over chips.
Sprinkle 1/2 cup reduced fat shredded cheddar cheese on top.
Broil 6 inches from heating element for 4-6 minutes until cheese melts.
If desired, serve salsa and light sour cream or nonfat plain yogurt on the side.
Eat raw veggies and grapes along with this meal.
(I like this with the black beans. Early in this pregnancy, I craved this recipe and made it a lot. It's fast and easy and has lots of fiber.)
cake and gifts
opening gifts. They got wonderful gifts. Everyone was so generous and they have been so excited. (In fact, Ella talked a steady stream all the way through sacrament meeting today. She's a talker but usually the girls are pretty good in church. But not today. She played with her barbies and Bratz and pretended to be a kitty and hardly stopped talking to take a breath. I hope we weren't too disruptive to those around us. She didn't talk very loudly, just consistently, all the way through.)
So, thank you to everyone!
Michelle with her Bratz dolls from Janene which she's been asking for for at least a month. Thanks Nene!